My Current Job Situation

There is quite possibly no greater motivation to get your butt moving and get job searching for a "real life" job than working two retail/customer service jobs in a tourist town. By that I mean I am a cashier at a chain drug store and a hostess at a small, family run restaurant that is really flailing business wise and has the strangest staff possible, and I cringe every time I slip on my polo or dirty restaurant shirt with the lobster on my boob because I can feel my lovely liberal arts university education going to waste. And almost in the same moment I am ashamed of my blatant snobbery. That fine line those few conscientious souls in academia walk between their hoity toity theories and their awareness that they are part of an exclusive population and that they really aren't qualified to judge anyone and their life choices- after all aren't we all a product of our circumstances?- is a really difficult line to walk and I find myself drawn back there this summer time and again. In my anxiety to find a job for the fall, which I'm hoping will be some kind of balance between useful for my income in stimulating for my mind, I find myself wondering what the hell the "locals" are doing being satisfied slaving away in a dim little seafood place that forever will smell like fish and chips?

And yet... what the hell do I want to do with my life? I have no specific career desires. If I had to pick one thing I would say writer. Closely followed by actress. Part of me wishes that my parents had forced me into nursing school. Or instilled in me some burning desire to go to medical school that would have pushed me through the Chem and Bio classes and terribly long hours of lab... all things I avoided in college. On the one hand I have a really interesting and well rounded education background. On the other I am not trained for anything. I have yet to figure out how to effectively and creatively bottle and name my excellent communication, organizational and leadership skills in order to convince someone to hire me.

It seems that the weather today will be just as depressing as my train of thought this morning so I'm just hoping that the customers at both of the jobs I am working today aren't too grumpy. My fuse is getting shorter and shorter and I would really hate to lose it and go apeshit at a mean old lady today.

xoxo
T